Being Chronically Ill in a Disaster Zone. As Usual, the Social Safety Net is All Holes and No Net. Also, Don’t Donate to the Red Cross.

This video was posted 2 days ago and documents the realities of living and surviving in the wake of a natural disaster, in this case, the ongoing volcanic eruptions on the Big Island of Hawaii.  Some of the evacuees and displaced homeowners are elderly, disabled and/or chronically ill and their lives have been turned upside down by clouds of toxic gasses and rivers of lava running through their homes and communities and their situations are being made worse by the lack of reliable social services available to anyone under these conditions.  But being chronically ill, disabled, and dependent on medication on top of the “normal” disaster-related stresses healthy people are also experiencing is proving to be unbearable and people are starting to crack under the strain.  One 81-year old diabetic man is living with his 83-year old wife in tent in the shelter parking lot, doesn’t have his medication, and the Red Cross is not helping them and is only making things worse with their bureaucratic red tape making displaced and chronically ill people jump through ridiculous hoops just to have their basic needs met with shelter, food, water and medical care.

I can really relate to these people because I was becoming intolerably ill in late 2012 just as Hurricane Sandy wrecked the east coast and I lost my apartment and was essentially homeless, and had no choice but to move back in with my now ex-partner’s mother where I slept on a couch for 6 months, and then on a toddler bed for another 6 months during which time I was becoming increasingly and devastatingly ill.  Since then, based on that experience and others I have had since I first fell ill with a serious chronic illness, I have realized that it is frequently not the illness itself that causes all or even most of the problems chronically ill people face, but it is the lack of resources and social and financial support available to sick people under the best circumstances that make our already grossly diminished lives unbearable.  When we are also faced with extenuating circumstances like natural disasters and living and surviving in a disaster zone, often with no power, climate control, food, water, medication or other necessities of life it becomes an intolerable burden, and these disaster-related consequences can go on for months and even years, long after the public and geographically-distant friends and relatives have moved on and forgotten.

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Swallowing “Professional Middle Class” Hook, Line & Sinker. Academic Tenure Can Be Revoked Due to Illness (and Other Reasons).

This is Ruby.  Ruby is a mommy vlogger with over a million subscribers, is the sister of Bonnie and Ellie, and like her sisters is also a generational member of the LDS religious cult (Latter Day Saints, aka Mormons).  Ruby has a family including 6 young children and a husband.  Ruby and her husband have spent their entire relationship getting Mr. Ruby educated with a Master’s and a Ph.D and Mr. Ruby has used his education to get a teaching job which he has held for the last several years.  Mr. Ruby just found out he got tenure which means he can never be fired* from his job.  According to Ruby’s understanding of the situation, this means that they will always have money and therefore that they will always have security.  That they will always have necessary and discretionary income.  That they will always have a home.  Ruby is so, so, so very happy about that.

Judging by her life and lifestyle as a married middle class woman with children, Ruby has clearly bought into one myth, the myth of the middle class mother and wife who thinks that having a successful husband is a guarantee of current and future security.  She assumes that he will never leave, or decide to spend his money recklessly or on other people or in ways of which Ruby herself does not approve.  It is possible that their shared religion and community as LDS may function as a social glue that holds this couple together and keeps Mr. Ruby’s money in the shared account (and his dick in his pants) so it’s possible that Ruby is a bit smarter than most women who do the same thing but who don’t have anything holding their marriage together besides “attraction” or “love” or shared interests or shared parenting or other such fleeting things.  And to be fair, Ruby might be right about Mr. Ruby and Mr. Ruby might be the greatest guy or even the greatest person in the entire world and their plan to be secure for the rest of their life based on his job might be reasonable under certain circumstances.

But how realistic is it really, when the future security they have both worked so hard for is completely dependent on Mr. Ruby’s physical and mental ability to work, especially now where we are experiencing the collapse of our ecosystem and where so many people are becoming seriously chronically ill?  What if Mr. Ruby already has a latent condition of which he is not yet aware including the increasing likelihood that any of us has a confounding autoimmune disease that will be resistant to treatment, both incurable and progressive, and where the conventional treatments are known to make autoimmune patients worse and even more disabled than they were before?

*Tenure can be revoked y’all.  And not just because of disability either.

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The Colostrum Culmination. Because I’m Actually Not Worth It.

In the last 3+ years in my search for relief and healing of my Crohn’s disease with medical cannabis, I have also tried more supplements than I can probably remember or count.  In addition to possibly every cannabis product and delivery method available, I have tried various multivitamins, minerals, digestive enzymes and other products including chaga, shilajit, Himalayan pink salt, blackstrap molasses, powdered fruit and vegetable juice capsules, colloidal silver, melatonin, bee pollen, Manuka honey, lecithin, probiotics, and fermented organic foods including miso, raw Kombucha, raw apple cider vinegar and raw saeurkraut and fermented vegetables, all at significant out-of-pocket cost which have left me destitute.  I didn’t care if I spent every last dime I had on finding an alternative treatment that worked because as an un- and undertreated Crohn’s patient, my pain and symptoms were not responding to conventional care and the relentless agony of my raging autoimmune and digestive disease had become unbearable.  I was willing to try anything and everything if I thought it held any promise to heal me, or so I thought.

For 3 years of trial and error on medical cannabis and supplements, and 2 years of conventional treatment before that, I had been willing to try anything, absolutely anything if I thought there was any chance that I would finally “get better” and be able to return to my previous life, or to any life at all and this appears to be common amongst Crohn’s patients specifically.  I once read about a Crohn’s sufferer who was willing to try a “fecal transplant” but he misunderstood the directions (and the concept) and ended up drinking the infusion instead of inserting it rectally and I knew exactly how he felt — Crohn’s patients will literally drink someone else’s shit if they think they might find relief from their suffering.  That’s how unimaginably hellish Crohn’s disease is. In my own case, my last attempt at conventional treatment was to agree to take immunity-decimating infusions that would’ve left me susceptible to opportunistic infections, cancer and death (my attempt was thwarted when the doctors prescribing the treatment fired me once I was accepted for Medicaid which was probably a good thing and left me no choice but to move across the country to seek healing with medical cannabis).

The last and final supplement I tried was colostrum and I ordered it from Amazon without even fully knowing what it was, just that it was a “natural” supplement that some people on the internet said had helped them with their ailments and that the relief was immediate and substantial.  But once I started using the colostrum and the more I researched it and figured out what it really was, something inside of me said “enough.”

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Patreon Drive for June 1 Donations. Thank You for Your Support.

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I would never ask to be rescued from a more or less natural death.  When I came here 3 years ago to treat my serious chronic illness with medical cannabis, I really felt like I was dying, that I had no choice and that even if I “lost everything” it would not matter.  My quality of life was nonexistent and I was so extremely ill that I thought either I would die from my disease (which I believe is essentially a terminal illness, or at least that it’s terminal without treatment) or that I would heal enough to go on with my life even if it looked much differently than it had before.  3 years later, I have “lost it all” having paid out-of-pocket for out-of-state lodging and treatment which has given me profound pain relief and significant healing from the ravages of my incurable and disabling autoimmune condition, Crohn’s disease.  While I consider this to be an unlikely and hard-won personal success and am so grateful that I was able to do that for myself, I am now facing something I did not expect: figuring out how to live into the foreseeable future with an only somewhat healed and temporarily managed illness and no money, no credit, no eligibility for benefits and little or no ability to earn.

This is Mama and Chili, my 2 adopted shelter cats.  Mama is the calico and Chili is her now-grown female kitten and appears to be a ragdoll mix.  They are so happy being together and the 3 of us have been blissed out for 3 years living in a modest calm and quiet living space in a beautiful rural area.  Mama and Chili are indoor/outdoor cats and get plenty of fresh air, sunshine, grass to chew on and bugs to chase.  Please help us stay together!

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Yes Pot Works. Yes It’s Been Around a Long Time. Enough with the Red Herrings. Also, “Education” of the Oppressor is Never A Solution to Political Oppression.

I wouldn’t call these vids a waste of time exactly, if you need something educational to listen to while doing the dishes or commuting or whatever.  But for those of us who already are educated on this issue, and for those of us who understand that education is not, in fact, a reliable road to any kind of political revolution (because everything they do to us is deliberate, meaning they know what they are doing) this kind of material is very boring and rings very hollow.  Doesn’t it?  The assumption that education is the key to solving the problem of cannabis prohibition and restriction is prevalent in every pro-cannabis dialog I have ever heard, and this tells me loud and clear that most people do not in fact realize that what we are dealing with is political oppression and that they think it’s something else entirely.  And I have no idea how to remedy that.

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“Functional Medicine” for Autoimmune Disease. More Gaslighting About the Sustainability of Alternative Treatment.

This video proposing and explaining alternative treatment for autoimmune disease using so-called “functional medicine” was somewhat interesting and gave me a bit of perspective into my own illness including what situations I should avoid in the future if I have any hope of maintaining my new-found relative health.  From a so-called functional medicine perspective, which is explained in this introductory video, it seems as if my extremely toxic upbringing by a sadistic, misogynistic Western medical doctor and nurse, as if there is any other kind, probably contributed to my serious chronic illness where trauma and abuse probably rewires the mind and body in ways that are disease-producing and very difficult to overcome under the brutal conditions of capitalism and patriarchy.

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Please Stay off the Astroturf! Do Corporate Crohn’s and Cannabis Blogs Bury Independent Media?

When I was first creating and launching this project, I researched what was already out there with regard to Crohn’s and cannabis blogs and I found that there are easily hundreds of thousands of each and that they are heavily corporate sponsored.  Big Pharma sponsors (or creates) Crohn’s and other disease and “health” related blogs in order to push their corporate propaganda, in this case, the propaganda that Big Pharma voodoo is effective and easily, completely and permanently treats Crohn’s disease.  But patients know better, and if you want to hear their voices you have to dig pretty deep, beyond the heavily promoted fake astroturf and down to the grassroots — grassroots meaning the voice of the truly independent media, regular people who are telling the truth about their experiences because they have no incentive to lie.

These “real” Crohn’s patient stories are only found on people’s independent personal channels, blogs and vlogs and are not sponsored and are not part of a larger “project” on Crohn’s disease, IBD, healthcare or alternative healthcare, or the like.  The Crohn’s project channels are tricky because they seem to be hosting the stories of “real patients” (TM) but one cannot help but notice that they speak exclusively positively about their disease, their conventional treatments and their lives as sick people and reliably downplay the negatives, such as framing iatrogenic illnesses and injuries caused by the treatments themselves as “hiccups” and the various surgeries, procedures and complications they have anyway despite their allegedly effective conventional treatment as just #crohnslife and you will find those kinds of stories on YouTube channels with names like: Living with Crohn’s Disease.  Crohn’s and Colitis UK.  Real Life Stories.  Life with IBD.  Avoid those and anything similar to those like the corporate-sponsored astroturf they are.

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