A “Rational Suicide” Note. Ft. Anne Örtegren.

This is a “suicide” note left by a ME/CFS sufferer who sought and found relief from her suffering via legal, medically assisted suicide.  She says this manifesto took her months to write, which I do not doubt a bit: it is long, detailed and polished and was written when she was feeling terrible.  She wrote it with the intent to describe her almost indescribable pain and experience, and to convince others to take action on behalf of ME/CFS sufferers, both of which are lofty communication goals when anyone is seriously ill.

Describing and convincing have been my most impossible endeavors since I’ve been seriously ill myself and I think I have mostly failed, judging by others’ reactions to everything I’ve managed to gather the physical and emotional grit to attempt to communicate: that I am seriously, hopelessly ill with an incurable, progressive disease, that there is no bottom to how bad this can get, and it matters not what anyone thinks about it.  Some things are just true regardless of whether anyone believes it.

In this note, ME/CFS patient Anne Örtegren describes symptoms and dilemmas I have experienced myself and she foresees logical outcomes to her predicament, something sick people and especially sick women are never allowed to do because catastrophization.  For example, she knows that her heightened sensitivity to light and sound will make treatment or recovery in a hospital setting impossible where the standard of care in that environment requires constant activity and interruptions, and provides no privacy and no escape from the harsh industrial lighting, interrogations by (allegedly) well meaning staff and the general hustle and bustle of capitalistic money making on the backs and bodies of sick and dying people.

That is but one example of a sick person making informed prognostications regarding likely outcomes of the things other people want to do to us, and as someone who shares these sensitivities to light and sound (and therefore an aversion to hospital settings) as but one example of our shared experience of being seriously ill, I appreciated her spelling it out.  I also feel extremely sad that she had to, and furious that no one who allegedly cared about her wellbeing including medical professionals who should be fucking sensitive to the actual needs of real patients could make the leap themselves.  There are many such examples in this letter.

See for yourselves, and understand that as illuminating and raw as this letter is, it’s also been edited by the publisher and a so-called suicide prevention expert because the bottom line everywhere appears to be that there is no such thing as rational suicide or euthanasia because well people and people who make money off of the long-term sick and dying say so.  And because living in this capitalistic, patriarchal nightmare is so hideous for so many people that “suicide contagion” exists, where just knowing that someone, somewhere had whatever it took to end themselves is likely to cause untold numbers of happy, healthy consumers with bright futures to do the same damn thing.  Yeah that’s it, let’s keep telling ourselves that.

The letter as published is reprinted below.  The unedited letter supposedly exists online somewhere if anyone cares to look and has the energy to figure out how and where the edited version differs from the original.  Comments are open below.

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NBC’s “New Amsterdam” Wants Viewers to Believe the Medical System is Broken. The Evidence Shows The System is Working Exactly as Intended (and Does NBC Have Nuclear Interests?)

From the IMDb page for NBC’s new medical drama “New Amsterdam”:

A new medical director breaks the rules to heal the system at America’s oldest public hospital.

From the horse’s mouth: NBC’s tagline for its new show:

Break the rules.  Heal the system.

This is just such basic SJW bullshit I’m tempted to not even respond at all — the belief that oppressive systems of social control are oppressive because they are “broken” and not because they are, well, systems of social control.  For those who don’t know, SJW is a pejorative term and short for the also pejorative “social justice warrior.”  The term is normally used by conservatives in the same vein as “politically correct” is used meaning, essentially, that American movements for social justice are unnecessary and that the market should decide who and what has value and the market has decided it’s white men so everyone else should just shut the fuck up.

SJWs would agree with the assessment of the market value of human beings except that they think it’s unfair that cis white men have all the value while everyone else can go pound sand.  SJWs aren’t critical of the market itself, meaning capitalism, and of course there is no criticism of SJWs own favorite capitalism-related pastime, what is essentially consumerist hedonism.  SJWs believe that white male transgenders, capitalism and consumerism/hedonism are all to be defended at any and all cost, including the cost of literally the efficacy, coherence and internal consistency of their own movement(s) which is supposed to center “fairness” including rejecting privilege and leveling the playing field.  Wow, that was harder to explain than I thought it would be!  Did I get it about right?  If not, I’m sure someone will tell me.

Anyhoo, while I agree that American political, institutional, corporate and interpersonal systems are unfair to almost everyone at some point, clearly I am not a fan of SJWs and their work and I am tired, just completely exhausted and bone-tired of the SJWs 100-year long legacy and indeed baseless generational insistence that things are unfair because they are “broken” and that therefore, things can and should be fixed.  What SJWs do not seem to recognize is that “things” are the way they are for a reason and are not broken at all but are working exactly as they are meant to.  And how, just how in the fuck do you fix something that’s not broken but is actually working exactly as intended?

In the case of a medical system that drains people of their resources, upholds patriarchal institutions and male power, robs sick people of their agency (and problematically, also defines who and what constitutes “sick” so can rob anyone of their agency at any time and for whatever reason they want to) and where Western medicine in particular causes additional trauma and injury known as iatrogenic illness and injury — illness and injury from medical evaluation and treatment itself, sometimes known as side effects, medical mistakes or medical malpractice — the fact that it does those things at all is prima facie evidence that those exact outcomes are what was intended all along.  Isn’t it?  I mean think about it — powerful people created these unnatural systems out of whole cloth and they could’ve made them do whatever they wanted them to do.

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Yes Pot Works. Yes It’s Been Around a Long Time. Enough with the Red Herrings. Also, “Education” of the Oppressor is Never A Solution to Political Oppression.

I wouldn’t call these vids a waste of time exactly, if you need something educational to listen to while doing the dishes or commuting or whatever.  But for those of us who already are educated on this issue, and for those of us who understand that education is not, in fact, a reliable road to any kind of political revolution (because everything they do to us is deliberate, meaning they know what they are doing) this kind of material is very boring and rings very hollow.  Doesn’t it?  The assumption that education is the key to solving the problem of cannabis prohibition and restriction is prevalent in every pro-cannabis dialog I have ever heard, and this tells me loud and clear that most people do not in fact realize that what we are dealing with is political oppression and that they think it’s something else entirely.  And I have no idea how to remedy that.

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