I first wrote about natural law here in the context of the right of access to the healing powers of natural cannabis that all humans are entitled to as citizens of a planet to which both humans and cannabis are native. In general, I do not understand how “nature” which possesses power of quality and quantity that is inconceivable to humans has failed so miserably to end capitalism and patriarchy which have sought to thwart nature and natural law at every turn. Natural law, which is by definition both sustainable and effortless would and should have decimated both capitalism and patriarchy by now shouldn’t it? Where both capitalism and patriarchy are by definition unsustainable and require immense effort to maintain, I do not understand how nature has turned out to be such an ineffective force against what can only be understood as pure artifice and evil and in the case of patriarchy one that has persisted and only increased in strength for the last 10,000 years. How has nature not thoroughly kicked capitalism and patriarchy’s ass by now? I do not understand how this is possible. I have always believed that if I were on the side of nature, that nature would be on my side — that if I or anyone or anything went against capitalism and patriarchy that we would have the most immense power in the universe on our side. That we would have “right” on our side and that that meant something and that nature itself would favor us to continue. Was I wrong to think that? It seems I was, but how was that wrong? How has nature turned out to be such a toothless wonder? If anyone has any ideas, I hope they will share.
In the past 3 years of treating myself out-of-state with medical cannabis, I have come to believe that access to cannabis (marijuana) is every human’s and animal’s natural right and is consistent with natural law. We are citizens of this planet, and mammals including humans have an endocannabinoid system and seem built to ingest this plant in whole — not merely in part — in order to achieve and maintain homeostasis and consistent mental and physical health. Man-made laws that contradict our natural right are therefore immoral, unethical and against our best interests. So why do so many people continue to follow these immoral and unethical restrictions on cannabis use and why do so few attempt to defend our natural right to use this beneficial plant? Where is the justifiable outrage at what has been taken from us and the extreme costs many of us have paid for this deprivation to our health, our finances, our freedom and our very lives?
When I first arrived in my new home state to start treating my Crohn’s disease with medical cannabis, this song was becoming popular and it spoke to me. I felt like I had made my escape from a medicalized torture chamber, that I was going to succeed against all odds to heal myself of an incurable and untreatable disease and that I had “right” on my side — my natural right as a thinking feeling being to follow my own intuition, beliefs and to live my life as I saw fit within the bounds of natural law and discarding male-made laws which were oppressive and above all, unsustainable. Under natural law, the only consequences to any action are natural consequences — meaning cause and effect. There are no punishments for poor choices only logical outcomes, nor are there rewards in a value-laden judgey sort of way. I felt, in a word, free.
As I have already described here, I put myself through law school and became an attorney fully expecting that if anything “bad” or financially catastrophic ever happened to me that I would be all alone without family or friends to support me. My nuclear family experience was oppressive and sadistic while my extended family and friends shared a collective lack of resources such that I knew that even if they wanted to help, there was little to no chance they would be able.
Furthermore, I had believed my mother when she told me that getting married and having kids had ruined her life. I believed that if I had any hope of taking care of myself long-term, including getting myself through when times were tough, I would need to be a “successful” skilled educated worker in a high-paying field for as long as possible, and that to avoid the awful oppressive conditions my mother faced, including the financial abuse and want she suffered when she was left a divorced, struggling single mother, that I would probably have to remain single and do it all by myself. Marrying rich (or at all), or in my mother’s case where she put my dad through medical school instead of herself, creating a sadistic misogynistic doctor out of a sadistic misogynistic poor guy from rural Michigan, was not the answer. I thought I had it all figured out and was led to believe I had.
After graduating from law school at the top of my class, I worked for about 6 years and got virtually nowhere. I found that, for newly licensed attorneys, the starting salaries were low and the practice-related expenses were high — things like a professional wardrobe and respectable vehicle were more or less required, and occasional vacations and costly relaxations and recreations weren’t exactly “discretionary” when you were losing your health and sanity to the oppressive working conditions of an entry-level employee faced with high responsibility and low control. High responsibility and low control being the objective markers of an objectively dissatisfying career leading to physical, emotional and mental “burnout” and worse.
In fact, my health started declining shortly after I began my career and became progressively worse, and eventually I was diagnosed with a disabling and progressive chronic illness, Crohn’s disease. And while I had managed to accumulate some resources in my time as a practicing attorney and was able to pay out of pocket for out-of-state lodging and alternative treatment for 3 years, I am currently at the end of my personal resources to deal with this problem. I have lost it all, having liquidated my assets, spent my savings, and maxed out and destroyed my credit pursuing the only medical treatment I ever found to deaden the pain and heal the destructive effects of Crohn’s disease: medical cannabis.
How and why is it so hard to “make it” under capitalism and patriarchy and so easy to then “lose it all”? Having experienced this myself, and having a lot of time to think about and analyze my situation, I have come to believe that losing it all — or having nothing in the first place — is more or less our natural human state and is entirely consistent with natural law. Simply put, no one has a natural right to accumulate. If left to the ravages of time and the elements, all accumulations will vanish.