Patreon Drive for August 1 Donations. Thank You for Your Support. Update Below the Fold.

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Thank you to my 12 existing Patrons!  I appreciate your support.

I would never ask to be rescued from a more or less natural death.  When I came here 3 years ago to treat my serious chronic illness with medical cannabis, I really felt like I was dying, that I had no choice and that even if I “lost everything” it would not matter.  My quality of life was nonexistent and I was so extremely ill that I thought either I would die from my disease (which I believe is essentially a terminal illness, or at least that it’s terminal without treatment) or that I would heal enough to go on with my life even if it looked much differently than it had before.  3 years later, I have “lost it all” having paid out-of-pocket for out-of-state lodging and treatment which has given me profound pain relief and significant healing from the ravages of my incurable and disabling autoimmune condition, Crohn’s disease.  While I consider this to be an unlikely and hard-won personal success and am so grateful that I was able to do that for myself, I am now facing something I did not expect: figuring out how to live into the foreseeable future with an only somewhat healed and temporarily managed illness and no money, no credit, no immediate eligibility for benefits and little or no ability to earn.

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Patreon Drive for July 1 Donations. Thank You for Your Support. Update Below the Fold.

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Please click the Patreon image in the sidebar or use the links below to visit my Patreon page. Thank you for your support. >>>>>>>>>

Thank you to my 13 existing Patrons!  I appreciate your support.

I would never ask to be rescued from a more or less natural death.  When I came here 3 years ago to treat my serious chronic illness with medical cannabis, I really felt like I was dying, that I had no choice and that even if I “lost everything” it would not matter.  My quality of life was nonexistent and I was so extremely ill that I thought either I would die from my disease (which I believe is essentially a terminal illness, or at least that it’s terminal without treatment) or that I would heal enough to go on with my life even if it looked much differently than it had before.  3 years later, I have “lost it all” having paid out-of-pocket for out-of-state lodging and treatment which has given me profound pain relief and significant healing from the ravages of my incurable and disabling autoimmune condition, Crohn’s disease.  While I consider this to be an unlikely and hard-won personal success and am so grateful that I was able to do that for myself, I am now facing something I did not expect: figuring out how to live into the foreseeable future with an only somewhat healed and temporarily managed illness and no money, no credit, no immediate eligibility for benefits and little or no ability to earn.

This is Mama and Chili, my 2 adopted shelter cats.  Mama is the calico and Chili is her now-grown female kitten and appears to be a ragdoll mix.  They are so happy being together and the 3 of us have been blissed out for 3 years living in a modest calm and quiet living space in a beautiful rural area.  Mama and Chili are indoor/outdoor cats and get plenty of fresh air, sunshine, grass to chew on and bugs to chase.  Please help us stay together!

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Patreon Drive for June 1 Donations. Thank You for Your Support.

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Please click the Patreon image in the sidebar or use the links below to visit my Patreon page. Thank you for your support. >>>>>>>>>

Thank you to my 10 existing Patrons!  I appreciate your support.

I would never ask to be rescued from a more or less natural death.  When I came here 3 years ago to treat my serious chronic illness with medical cannabis, I really felt like I was dying, that I had no choice and that even if I “lost everything” it would not matter.  My quality of life was nonexistent and I was so extremely ill that I thought either I would die from my disease (which I believe is essentially a terminal illness, or at least that it’s terminal without treatment) or that I would heal enough to go on with my life even if it looked much differently than it had before.  3 years later, I have “lost it all” having paid out-of-pocket for out-of-state lodging and treatment which has given me profound pain relief and significant healing from the ravages of my incurable and disabling autoimmune condition, Crohn’s disease.  While I consider this to be an unlikely and hard-won personal success and am so grateful that I was able to do that for myself, I am now facing something I did not expect: figuring out how to live into the foreseeable future with an only somewhat healed and temporarily managed illness and no money, no credit, no eligibility for benefits and little or no ability to earn.

This is Mama and Chili, my 2 adopted shelter cats.  Mama is the calico and Chili is her now-grown female kitten and appears to be a ragdoll mix.  They are so happy being together and the 3 of us have been blissed out for 3 years living in a modest calm and quiet living space in a beautiful rural area.  Mama and Chili are indoor/outdoor cats and get plenty of fresh air, sunshine, grass to chew on and bugs to chase.  Please help us stay together!

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A Family Member’s Response.

After reading your email, I just don’t see how your “treatment” has led you any where but down and out.  Your list of food and supplements are far more expensive than any working person can buy on a daily basis.

You haven’t seen a “traditional” doctor for 3 yrs or more.  And I’m not a supporter of anyone using weed as a treatment.  It will NOT help anyone seeking a cure, it may dull the pain…..but I’m not sure on that one either.  In the end you are still sick.

Now you need to do the work to get you back into the normal medical system and work with in that system for your future well fare.  Your way has not come to a workable end for you.  It has depleted and used up all of your time, talents and income. It’s taken you 3 years for it to come to this, now change course and bring yourself back to the surface.

My sister recently suggested that I send out an email blast to my mom’s side of the family to tell them what’s going on and to ask for help.  Since I have started flaring the last month or so, probably due to my increasingly poor diet and the stress of my situation and looming homelessness due to having expended all my personal resources on out-of-state lodging and treatment with medical cannabis, she thought I needed to ask for help buying supplements to boost my health and recover my energy and temporary assistance with living expenses.  From there, I don’t know what she had in mind except that without health and energy, there is no way I would be able to do anything and I very shortly will need to make a change as I will be unable to continue paying rent in a cannabis legal state.

For 2 days I received no replies whatsoever to my correspondence.  Today, this came.  This is from my mom’s sister, who is usually the spokesperson of the family so I assume this is their collective response.  I have not responded yet, and I may never, because what is there to say?  Let’s take it bit by bit.

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Patreon Drive for May 1 Donations. Thank You for Your Support.

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Thank you to my 4 existing Patrons!  I appreciate your support.

I would never ask to be rescued from a more or less natural death.  When I came here 3 years ago to treat my serious chronic illness with medical cannabis, I really felt like I was dying, that I had no choice and that even if I “lost everything” it would not matter.  My quality of life was nonexistent and I was so extremely ill that I thought either I would die from my disease (which I believe is essentially a terminal illness, or at least that it’s terminal without treatment) or that I would heal enough to go on with my life even if it looked much differently than it had before.  3 years later, I have “lost it all” having paid out-of-pocket for out-of-state lodging and treatment which has given me profound pain relief and significant healing from the ravages of my incurable and disabling autoimmune condition, Crohn’s disease.  While I consider this to be an unlikely and hard-won personal success and am so grateful that I was able to do that for myself, I am now facing something I did not expect: figuring out how to live into the foreseeable future with an only somewhat healed and temporarily managed illness and no money, no credit, no eligibility for benefits and little or no ability to earn.

 

This is Mama and Chili, my 2 adopted shelter cats.  Mama is the calico and Chili is her now-grown female kitten and appears to be a ragdoll mix.  They are so happy being together and the 3 of us have been blissed out for 3 years living in a modest calm and quiet living space in a beautiful rural area.  Mama and Chili are indoor/outdoor cats and get plenty of fresh air, sunshine, grass to chew on and bugs to chase.  Please help us stay together!

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A 4/20 Post. Crohn’s Disease Origin Stories. Sponsored by Big Pharma and Cannabis Prohibition.

As I have continued to educate myself on the horrors of Crohn’s disease and the experiences of Crohn’s patients I have found that the discussions on the Crohn’s patient forums and message boards have been the most helpful.  The patients there discuss openly and honestly what is going on with them, how they are feeling, how this disease has affected their lives.  In reading their accounts, I noticed that four general themes arose again and again: firstly, that Crohn’s treatments are not effective at all, or if they work at first the relief doesn’t last, and in any case cause disabling side effects that are often even worse than the disease itself; secondly, that Crohn’s patients — having found no relief from conventional doctors or conventional treatment which often makes them worse — are often crippled from their illness and wish that friends and family were more understanding about how disabling Crohn’s can be and that it’s not just a “poop problem” but a systemic, chronic, incurable inflammatory autoimmune disease that often manifests outside the gut as well; thirdly, that even on their best days, Crohn’s patients still feel significantly ill and negative test results do not always correlate with decreased symptoms or decreased pain or increased ability; and lastly, and perhaps unsurprisingly considering the first 3, that there is a high depression and suicide rate among Crohn’s patients.

Please watch the following Crohn’s origin stories and see if it doesn’t make perfect sense that Crohn’s patients would tend to talk about the topics above again and again and again and again and again.  And all this suffering, every bit of it, is due to iatrogenic illness and injuries resulting from Big Pharma voodoo and medical interventions themselves, including medical mistakes; the utter failure of the capitalistic patriarchal medical machine to relieve their suffering one bit; and cannabis restriction and prohibition, where the only substance on Earth known to reliably treat either chronic pain or chronic inflammation (and this does both) is cannabis, otherwise known as marijuana.  And speaking of iatrogenic illness and injury (including so-called side effects) cannabis does it with literally zero risk of death and a relatively high risk of “euphoria” otherwise known as a feeling or state of intense excitement and happiness.

Yes, it seems that in the case of using medical cannabis to treat chronic inflammation, which it is known to do reliably and well, the most common “side effect” is to also simultaneously treat acute and chronic physical and mental pain.  Now there’s a thought.  Listen to their stories and see for yourself if you think these people deserve better.  See for yourself if you think these people deserve the option — just the option! — of trying medical cannabis to treat this horrible, horrible disease and everything that comes with it.

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Doctor’s Office as Confessional. When There’s “Nothing They Can Do”

Many times in my journey to heal myself from the ravages of Crohn’s disease I have felt like giving up.  Although I have gotten profound pain relief and some real healing benefits from my handcrafted cannabis treatment protocol for Crohn’s, even on my best days I am still significantly ill; sometimes I begin to panic knowing how close I am to being homeless and I become absolutely desperate for help.  Several times I have laid in bed and considered going to the hospital and more than once I have made doctors’ appointments thinking that I had finally come to the end of my abilities to heal myself and that therefore, I needed to reach out for help.  But what’s the point of that when, as a chronically ill person with an incurable and indeed untreatable disease I already know there is nothing they can do?

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